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An immature, ignorant, and socially inexperienced brat... that was me on January 31st, 2012.
Have I held a serious tone so far? Caught your interest? Because now I'm changing the mood.
Yes, the story of how I ended up on DeviantArt is actually very amusing. For as long as I can remember, I've always been a writer at heart. It's no surprise, then, that I love reading: or that I stumbled across Fanfiction. Yeah, I read some M rated material and corrupted my mind at a very young age. A certain fanfiction caught my eye and I wanted to read it badly. However, this story was not posted on fanfiction. You guessed it: the story was posted here.
I'm very pleased to know that DeviantArt has a mature content filter, but it just so happened that the filter was the reason why I joined this site. My desire to read the damn story caused me to sign up and BOOM! Here I am.
It didn't take long for me to see what other features DeviantArt had. I was fascinated by all of the creativity and work of fellow deviants, so I felt compelled to follow in their footsteps. I didn't want to be an outcast on the internet as I was away from the screen!
Perhaps it was because of the way I was made, but I've always had a balance between creativity and logic. They are my primary tools, or gifts, for life and I love using them. So, from the moment I posted my very first deviation I knew I was addicted. What's more, I had encouragement from fellow deviants. Now that's a boost in self-confidence, which, at the time, I had very little.
It made me happy to see people like my work, and inspired me to continue to work harder and harder. I was dazzled by the art, poems, stories, and crafts that people made! Before I knew it, 2012 grew into 2013.
The social part of DeviantArt taught me a lot. Not only was I doing better on the site but in school, as well. I began to move away from my comfort zone and reach out to people. I felt better about who I was and, despite my ongoing personal problems, happier than I had been. I continued to gain support, improve in my work, make new friends, and learn more about the friends I already had. But I still had a lot to learn.
Although I was becoming happy, the source of my happiness wasn't (as I now consider it) healthy.
Sure, I was inspired and worked harder; sure, I loved positive feedback and seeing my deviation get another favorite... but I was still a people-pleaser. I didn't work or laugh to help myself, I did it because I wanted others to work or laugh! I was still searching for something, but I wasn't sure what. My main ambition was popularity. I was envious.
I was jealous that other people were getting attention and I wasn't. I wasn't satisfied with a 'good job' when I saw others get 'I love this so much, it's very inspiring!' I was jealous that somebody with art that I considered lower than mine was more loved than I. I wanted to be the person that everybody looked up to and respected. I wanted to be the person mentioned in a conversation whenever something amazing was brought up. I was selfish and ignorant and I didn't realize it.
What's more, whenever I got a comment such as 'Why can't I draw like this? You're so good!' or 'I love this so much!' I would take it for granted and give advice when I didn't know what I was saying. My envy grew until I read a journal entry that stalled my jealousy. The entry spoke of how art should be a passion and not an excuse for attention. I lingered with the thought but it ended up escaping me when my personal problems only grew. Yet, days later, I saw another journal with the same message. Again and again I saw these entries, and finally I realized my fault and its effects... and I started on my journey to fix them.
. : 2012 : .
The Year of Awakening
The slow-progress of my works from 2012.
The Year of Awakening
The slow-progress of my works from 2012.
Years ago, I was a wandering lost cause in search of respite from hidden stress. In addition to that, I wanted to redeem myself through the means of pleasing people. I was convinced that making friends was the solution to my problems. Due to my conviction, I flaunted around the internet as if I knew what I was doing. My curiosity led me astray after I discovered things one would label inappropriate for someone my age and gender: I tracked the sources responsible and ended up making "friends" (either they weren't who I thought they were or I assumed we were friends because of a nice meeting). Nonetheless, it so happened that one day I ended up here...
Have I held a serious tone so far? Caught your interest? Because now I'm changing the mood.
Yes, the story of how I ended up on DeviantArt is actually very amusing. For as long as I can remember, I've always been a writer at heart. It's no surprise, then, that I love reading: or that I stumbled across Fanfiction. Yeah, I read some M rated material and corrupted my mind at a very young age. A certain fanfiction caught my eye and I wanted to read it badly. However, this story was not posted on fanfiction. You guessed it: the story was posted here.
I'm very pleased to know that DeviantArt has a mature content filter, but it just so happened that the filter was the reason why I joined this site. My desire to read the damn story caused me to sign up and BOOM! Here I am.
It didn't take long for me to see what other features DeviantArt had. I was fascinated by all of the creativity and work of fellow deviants, so I felt compelled to follow in their footsteps. I didn't want to be an outcast on the internet as I was away from the screen!
Perhaps it was because of the way I was made, but I've always had a balance between creativity and logic. They are my primary tools, or gifts, for life and I love using them. So, from the moment I posted my very first deviation I knew I was addicted. What's more, I had encouragement from fellow deviants. Now that's a boost in self-confidence, which, at the time, I had very little.
It made me happy to see people like my work, and inspired me to continue to work harder and harder. I was dazzled by the art, poems, stories, and crafts that people made! Before I knew it, 2012 grew into 2013.
The social part of DeviantArt taught me a lot. Not only was I doing better on the site but in school, as well. I began to move away from my comfort zone and reach out to people. I felt better about who I was and, despite my ongoing personal problems, happier than I had been. I continued to gain support, improve in my work, make new friends, and learn more about the friends I already had. But I still had a lot to learn.
Although I was becoming happy, the source of my happiness wasn't (as I now consider it) healthy.
Sure, I was inspired and worked harder; sure, I loved positive feedback and seeing my deviation get another favorite... but I was still a people-pleaser. I didn't work or laugh to help myself, I did it because I wanted others to work or laugh! I was still searching for something, but I wasn't sure what. My main ambition was popularity. I was envious.
I was jealous that other people were getting attention and I wasn't. I wasn't satisfied with a 'good job' when I saw others get 'I love this so much, it's very inspiring!' I was jealous that somebody with art that I considered lower than mine was more loved than I. I wanted to be the person that everybody looked up to and respected. I wanted to be the person mentioned in a conversation whenever something amazing was brought up. I was selfish and ignorant and I didn't realize it.
What's more, whenever I got a comment such as 'Why can't I draw like this? You're so good!' or 'I love this so much!' I would take it for granted and give advice when I didn't know what I was saying. My envy grew until I read a journal entry that stalled my jealousy. The entry spoke of how art should be a passion and not an excuse for attention. I lingered with the thought but it ended up escaping me when my personal problems only grew. Yet, days later, I saw another journal with the same message. Again and again I saw these entries, and finally I realized my fault and its effects... and I started on my journey to fix them.
. : 2014 : .
The Year of a New World
My favorite works from this year!
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The Year of a New World
My favorite works from this year!
I'm happy to honestly state that I am not who I was one or two years ago. My goals now are not out of jealousy or capricious attitudes and I don't speak to people the same way I had before. I have set my boundaries and discovered my limits, and have developed a more clear and focused mind. I have grown and experienced things on this site that other sites could not give, I have changed my ways and fixed my faults, and I have become smarter and safer in the social spectrum of things. Furthermore, I had the inspiration and support from fellow deviants along the way. Time and time again I have been mind-struck by an insightful poem, extraordinarily creative art piece, or a well constructed story. It's been a real treat to see others, and myself, grow.
I write and draw because it makes me happy-- it's a part of who I am. I write and draw not to please others, but to advance myself in a field I love playing in. You see, DeviantArt for me has been a learning experience with so many fun twists and turns, good people, and worlds crafted by the minds of others and transferred onto a screen for others to enjoy. So, thank you DeviantArt and fellow deviants for everything you have done! I am truly grateful!
Now, what adventures await in 2015 and so on? This tale isn't over yet!
As always, thank you for reading, and have a nice day.
I write and draw because it makes me happy-- it's a part of who I am. I write and draw not to please others, but to advance myself in a field I love playing in. You see, DeviantArt for me has been a learning experience with so many fun twists and turns, good people, and worlds crafted by the minds of others and transferred onto a screen for others to enjoy. So, thank you DeviantArt and fellow deviants for everything you have done! I am truly grateful!
Now, what adventures await in 2015 and so on? This tale isn't over yet!
~Happy Birthday, DeviantArt!~
May you live on and continue to grow and inspire others!
As always, thank you for reading, and have a nice day.
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I've always loved Nintendo because it has a deep root in my childhood, and has morals which most gaming companies (and even governments, sheesh) don't have. It's set apart from the rest in a very unique way. My two favorite franchises from Nintendo are The Legend of Zelda and Mario. Ever since I had discovered the Twili from Twilight Princess I had fallen in love with them, their realm, and the ambiance. My favorite character from the Mario series has always be
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I just wanted to give you all a heads-up for some inactivity through the days listed above. I'll be visiting family for a while and internet will be non-existent. So conversations, deviations, and all the other salutations are put on a hiatus! So don't spam my inbox!
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As I'm sure many of you know, Nintendo's president Satoru Iwata passed away on July 11th, 2015. At first, this didn't hit me although I knew perfectly well who he was. As the hours went on, it slowly began to creep up on me that an extraordinary man has left this world way too soon. Never again will I see his name rolling on the credits of a Zelda game (which is the very reason why I was familiar with him in the first place). Today, I think I've finally realized just what kind of loss this is.
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